Being overly confused is where I found myself while reading this text. You would expect a book to go from point a to point b however I feel we made a few wrong turns and pit stops along the way. There was no bait on what we were supposed to be catching that the writer is saying, however as I continued to push through it became a bit clearer on where we are going.
Starting with the title we get the vision that time is of the essence, you have so much to do with so little time. As we continue reading we can see a bit of this with Ben trying to scramble so many thoughts into one place at once. With a clearer path of the author’s thought however they are still a bit tangled as to how every situation coincides with each other. While reading I got the feeling of “to do or not to do” as if he was rationing out every life choice until the end. With the same routine everyday leaving him what a sense of stability and control.I believe everything he is doing was with the end goal of leaving something behind emotionally more than physically. What is interesting to me is that even though he does not know how much time he has to live he does not let that get in the way of his daily routine. Although he is scared he will not achieve much in life while losing the self esteem he has built up throughout his life. Through all this he still decided to be a sperm donor, now was this a rational or emotional decision on his behalf. Did he want to leave this world with something of his that he was unable to do himself due to lack of relations he has had? Either way he is being bold and yet indecisive with what he wants the world to know.
What confuses me the most is that instead of worrying about his health and trying to do everything possible he is worried about global warming. Out of all things he is worried about something that has been happening for decades but now is finally showing the consequences. I get the feeling that by trying to have control on global warming and come up with different ways to help save the world he is actually just doing this as a way to mask as if he has control of his own health. Being reckless with your physical body yet trying to fight the whole world is a strength not many people have or can even think of doing.

